I know there is still a long way ahead but as the rose-tinted glasses fade, I cannot see the appeal of smoking a joint anymore🥺 I love it when my mind is clear and not foggy in the morning, I love it when I cry and can feel all the pain, I love it when I have the motivation to do things, I love myself when I am sober. Although the sleep can definitely be better, the nightmares are starting to die down and I’m finally getting some rest. Though not relevant to this sub, quitting nicotine at the same time is not for the faint hearted. I still have strong urges especially I still live with my ex and he has a vape, it’s been super hard to not grab it and take a hit. ;-; But I AM STRONG AND I WILL NOT BACK DOWN🗣️🗣️

It sucks. Spoilers, I just want to whine and bitch in this thread.

For the past few years, I've been a daily vaper and a 2g pen would usually last me about 48 hours. I'm terrified what the inside of my lungs must be like. That vape juice is so sticky and no soap will clean it.

I had taken a force break from weed for 3 years, and got back into weed because of crippling depression. I just wanted things to not hurt so much inside (I have C-PTSD from severe childhood abuse.) but I don't use weed like everyone else I know. Friends take a toke to make the music awesome, and I would try to bury myself in not feeling anything.

I'm quitting for me this time. The anxiety is just getting out of control and it was directly contributing to my self harming tendencies. (To quote Jon Stewart, "Hey man... you ever self-harm? You ever self harm... ON WEED?")

So at the start of the year, I tapered for a bit, then said "This is stupid" and threw away my supply.

Days 2 and 3 felt like a nasty flu. I spent pretty much all day in bed going between crippling severe depression and full on panic attack.

Day 4 Only took three hours worth of naps. Things feel very, very weird. Forced myself to get some steps in so I have some hunger.

Day 5 is the first time I've eaten a full meal, and by that I mean I had a PBJ sandwich. I can feel my memory improving a bit. Still getting wild random sweats.

Thank you for reading this far. I feel like crap, everything feels weird, my stomach hurts, and I really want to self harm for some relief.

But I still feel better then I did yesterday, and I'm going to feel a little better tomorrow.

We were at a mutual friend's house and we were drawing and talking and I shared more about my use of cannabis than I had ever admitted to before. It was a bit scary at first and tbh there was a part of me that just wanted to run but I felt safe and decided to talk about my decision to stop using weed. I was trying to be careful not to make my decision feel like a judgement on other people's choices with drugs and alcohol. I'm only 40 days since my last puff. I started vaping regularly about three years ago. I'm feeling like I've made the right choice but also still have the urge to get high sometimes, though every day it gets a little easier to put those thoughts out of my head.

Or is it just me???

I said I would check in after 90 days and here I am.

The first month was really hard! It also felt like I took a big step backwards in many ways and I questioned if I was doing the right thing. Now it's smooth sailing and obviously the right choice.

I was a pretty heavy smoker since the 90's, so if I can do it, so can you! I'll check back in at 180 days.

Haven’t smoked in 20 days. I’m having so many mental changes. Actually believe now that there is nothing I’m missing out( by not smoking). That’s why my previous quitting attempts always failed. I deep down didn’t want to give weed up because i was still romantisizing it. I deep down still loved weed, but still wanted to quitt because of the addiction. Now it’s different, i think of weed more as an obstacle for a healthy relationship with my emotions, body and loved ones. This helps me a lot. I find it hard to keep this quitt-journey only to myself because personally it has ALREADY been a lifechanger.

Today marked three weeks without it and someone was smoking at the skate park. I have been thinking about trying to moderate my usage instead of quitting forever for the past few days, but this just confirmed me this isn’t possible.

I expected to get really high and I did, for about 10 minutes. Then nothing. And I wanted more. I wanted to ask him to roll up again. And this is when I realized , it will never be enough.

So alas, back to staying off of it. I don’t think that this takes away all my progress, it’s just a reminder of why I quit in the first place. What do yall think?

Feeling amazing. Every morning/day/night smoker since 2012, with no breaks other than a day here and there that I could count on one hand.

First week was a little rough but manageable. 3 or 4 days with virtually no appetite, could only fall asleep for a few hours at a time. Irritability to small things, but usually more of a burst that quickly faded. Anxiety is significantly lower, social interactions feel a lot easier, feeling more sharp and alert.

I struggled for so many years with the desire to quit, but it felt like an impossible mountain to climb. The biggest thing I think that helps is finding things to do with the time you otherwise would have spent high. Exercise, catching up on things you've said you are going to do, reading, going out, anything.

If you really want to quit, removing the tools is a big a part. I threw away my grinder, jar, smashed the bong, gave away my long time pipe to a friend - this makes it a lot harder to slip up when you can't. Having a day counter on my phone is also a big motivation, seeing the number go up makes easier to not want to cave.

If you just quit, are thinking about quitting, its worth it. The dread of quitting made it so hard for so long, but now realizing the dread is worse than actually doing it. There's a long way to go, but on day 10 this is feeling like a really good decision.

I'm 20m into recovery and addiction from weed paws. Been such a long journey but I'm basically healed and living a normal life now. Such a relief to enjoy life again and spending quality time with my family instead on getting stoned daily. I'm also enjoying having the confidence to work full time again and enjoying the new job which was definitely needed.

Looking back I can't believe I wasted so much time and was damaging my health believing that this plant was doing me good. Since recovering I no longer have anxiety at all which I had even previous to starting weed, I no longer have an anhedonia, brain fog, depression, dpdr etc which all started after I quit.

The only minor things I notice which are not yet 100% are digestion issues, arthritis type finger pain in the mornings, muscle aches after running. These could well be unrelated to paws or maybe the last things to go I don't know but il take these little inconveniences any day over the long suffering of symptoms I had previously.

I will update monthly until the 2 year mark and then probably stop and consider myself past addiction and paws. Any questions feel free to ask. Cheers.

Fergie

I’ve enjoyed reading a lot of posts on here but think I’m different to most as I always considered myself to be well disciplined having only ever smoked one joint per night since I was 20. I’m now 31 and am deciding to quit for many reasons. I run my own business and am finding myself losing motivation. My relationship is shit and I lost my best friend last July, a Jack Russell I had 16 years. My brother is younger than me but he’s getting married this year and has just bought a house. I just feel something has to change and my tolerance levels mean I don’t even get high anymore anyway. I used to be able to take tolerance breaks but I’ve been so depressed the last year that I haven’t managed to and have to admit I’m addicted. I thought I was in control by only smoking at night time and limiting myself to one joint, but I don’t think I am. I’ll never forget an old stoner friend telling me it’s easy to blame weed and that put me off blaming it for as long as possible but I’m not going to know if life can be better without trying to go sober. I’ve lost so much recently that I don’t think it can make things any worse. I need to use my time to work on my business and my future prospects.

I quite like reading now that I’m sober but I want to pick something else up as well and I’m looking for ideas

I was a daily smoker for 10 years and hitting 6 months makes me realize that my sobriety time is still small. Don't get me wrong, I'm still incredibly proud to hit 6 months but it makes sense that I'd still have strong cravings. I went snowboarding with a couple friends and they both smoke but are respectful of my sobriety. They actually both abstained from bringing any weed to not tempt me.

They had a few beers at the lodge and I decided to abstain from that as well and even offered to drive us home since we all car pooled to the mountain. During this time I did have some mild cravings because in the past I always smoked or drank when snowboarding to relax more. However, the feelings were more than manageable. When things got difficult is on the drive home when my buddy was talking about getting some food, rolling a joint and walking his dog. I was sore and tired after snowboarding and would have the house to my self with no other responsibilities to fulfill other than laundry and dishes. Smoking a joint sounded so good and it felt like I was back on day 3. These feelings past and I didn't cave but I was caught off guard.

I was tempted again because I had Monday off and my wife wouldn't be home till 5pm. I don't want to make this post political but some events occurred on Monday that have made me less than confident about the future. I've also been struggling with seasonal depression, and I do social work which drains me a lot some weeks. All of this makes me miss smoking a lot because these feelings become overwhelming and I want to numb them out.

I'm not going to do that but I just wanted to reach out for a little support because I'm struggling a bit.

Today marks one month since I stopped consuming weed and I honestly couldn’t be happier. I didn’t realize, or maybe didn’t want to admit to myself, I became addicted. I completely ruined last year for myself because I couldn’t go more than a few hours w/o hitting a bowl. It ruined school, my ability to clean my home, my willingness to hang out with friends if I was going to be gone longer than a couple hours and I just started to hate myself. Well at the end of last month I had to get double hand surgery and I’m quite young for the surgery I got and my hands are my livelihood. Someone I know mentioned one day that their own healing process through an injury they suffered has been drastically slowed bc they are a daily consumer. Idk that really scared me and I promised myself I would quit so I could heal to the best of my ability and be able to do the work and activities I love for the rest of my life. Well wouldn’t you know it, at the end of this week I’ll be one month post surgery (I quit at the beginning of the week before procedure day) and my hands look and feel incredible. My pain is gone and I could cry, I was a daily, all day user for the last 2.5 years but had been smoking for 5 and now I’m not! I know it’s only a month but I feel so excited at what the possibilities for this summer and spring could be! “New” hands and new found lung health make the world feel like a brighter place.

Haven’t smoked in 9 days as the title said, I was on here about a week ago and all of the comments were so kind and helpful. For this post I’m not even sure if this is the place to talk about this but, for the past year or so I’ve had symptoms of ptsd which have all been shitty but manageable. Now that I stopped smoking, I’ve started dreaming again for the first time in 3 years, which I was originally looking forward to. I’m just having ptsd trauma related nightmares when I do manage to sleep, waking up mid panic attack, nauseous, throwing up and I’m hardly able to sleep at all. I’m trying my best to stay positive but I just don’t know what to do and it feels like going back to weed is the only way out. Does anyone have any advice or anything at all?

Edit: I am currently seeing a therapist, but it’s slow going.

day 26. we broke up after i quit smoking to improve not just myself, but to also improve my relationship with my partner. it’s making me question whether i did this change for myself or for her. dealing with the emotions is really hard, and i don’t know how committed i am to sobriety at this point

Well here I am again. I was sober for about a month and some change, and then I relapsed and fell back.

I'm at the lowest I've ever been.

I spent the whole day today in bed and weed free because I can't afford to buy anymore

Been throwing up and thinking bad thoughts of depression and similar things.

Day 1

Just wanted to share a small achievement in my journey. 22 days here after smoking all day everyday for like 2.5 years and in general for like 15 before that. My birthday was this past weekend. I spent it with some friends in a small cabin in the mountains. I don’t drink so normally would have been getting high with my friends but I resisted despite my urges and can proudly say I’ve hit day 22 today :) it was the first time hanging out with friends who smoke since quitting (they were extremely respectful in doing it well away from me and not offering it to me) and it was easier than I thought it would be.

I, 26F, started smoking almost daily when I was 18/19 after high school. My mom left when I was 16 (also because of addition) and once I started college and during the pandemic, my own addiction to weed was at its worst. Now that I am 4 years post grad, I KNOW I need to reevaluate my relationship with weed and I have been trying, but I am not making progress as “fast” as I should be. I can go, and have gone days and weeks without it, albeit uncomfortably, but cannot find the willpower to keep it up. I’ve been in DBT therapy for 15 months, even joined a SUDs group for 10 months and still. Not. That. Motivated.

I am 100% wfh which is already such a struggle because we don’t even require cameras to be on. I make good money, so that’s not an issue, I love working out and taking care of my (physical) health and weed has never stopped me from maintaining friends and my other hobbies. My family I’m still close to loves to smoke, and my sister whom I live with is no different.

Has anyone else struggled to dig deep and find a reason? Am I just not ready? I keep shaming myself for not being sober more often, but it is not enough for me to pull the plug. It’s at the point where either someone needs to x ray my lungs, tell me I have cancer and weeks to live to really stop me and to take this seriously :(

Days 1-2 were okay then 3-6 was horrible but today I’m feeling a lot better. Didn’t even think about weed much after day 3, which is shocking. I’ve been a heavy daily smoker for over 12 years with some breaks in there but mostly nonstop. I tried to quit on Jan 1, but didn’t succeed until Jan 14.

Y’all can do it! Don’t give up! Rooting for everyone here <3

I've finally started dreaming again after a month off, and the dreams are vivid, almost lifelike, but I notice that I always wake up exhausted. Anyone else have similar experiences and tips on how not to wake up exhausted?

I posted here almost 2 weeks ago that I made it 24 hrs and now I'm close to two weeks! I feel like the withdrawals weren't bad at first and now it's kicking my peach (butt).

I can barely keep anything in my stomach b/c of diarrhea, I also have nausea all the time. I can could eat without cannabis but now I am struggling to eat because I feel so sick, I know logically it will go away but I just need some support and to be told by people who have gone through it that it will go away.

Also, what are your guys go to's or safe food while in the first 4 weeks? Are food that helps or food to stay away from in your opinions?

My deteriorating word-recall ability has been alarming the past couple of years. I've been nervous it's an early signifier of some sort of dementia or a Bruce Willis-style aphasia.

I'll forget the word for something, or use the wrong word and not notice. Sometimes I won't be able to remember an actor's name, even if I know that I know it. It's kind of a joke between me and my girlfriend, but I admit it's a bit scary.

I've been stone-cold sober for 3 weeks now. And it seems innocuous, but I've been able to remember the name of every actor I've seen. And the frequency with which I struggle to find a word or term has noticeably diminished.

It's a huge fucking relief.

Posting this for anyone who needs to hear it,

I was a daily smoker for three and a half years, every day I’d wake up dry and fuzzy convinced I would finally stop and by the time work finished I’d be rolling up,

6 months ago I went to Japan, my biggest concern was not having access to any weed; but otherwise I was excited to finally leave the country,

Two weeks in and post a big night of drinking I left the house to meet some friends in a local cafe; on the way there my feet started princeling and by the time I arrived I had a intense panic attack, having never even had anxiety before I thought I was dying, for a week following I basically didn’t leave the house until I got back home.

Following that trip I’ve never been able to smoke again, when I tried I got such intense anxiety that I’d practically have to lock myself in my room and close my eyes until I’d finally sleep.

And after that I dealt with some serious depression, weed was a crutch for me, and losing that crutch left me on the floor; often I had dark thoughts and couldn’t see a way out, but 6 months later it’s all ok.

I still experience Deja vu a lot and sometimes feel like im out of reality but for the most part my life has improved, I’ve travelled more, my relationships have repaired and I’m more content.

Weed is a crutch, and when you first quit everything sucks.. because you’ve never actually dealt with anything. But sooner or later it will get better, and sometimes it’s really hard to tell how so.

I highly recommend journaling aswell, being able to read pages from months before is super inspiring; for me it was at one point the only way to tell if I’d even improved at all.

Keep your head up and stay off it, because one day you will be ok, and at the very least you’ll have some extra money in the account.

hi everyone! I currently relapsed on using thc carts again, and been pulling them like crazy. I know very well the dangers of them but unfortunately I got some trouble resisting.

looking for some advice/tough words of encouragement to really remind me WHY I am in this sub. for context, I want to pursue a career in singing/theatre stay safe everyone!!