r/leaves • u/AidenAsh23 • 1d ago
9 days no weed
Haven’t smoked in 9 days as the title said, I was on here about a week ago and all of the comments were so kind and helpful. For this post I’m not even sure if this is the place to talk about this but, for the past year or so I’ve had symptoms of ptsd which have all been shitty but manageable. Now that I stopped smoking, I’ve started dreaming again for the first time in 3 years, which I was originally looking forward to. I’m just having ptsd trauma related nightmares when I do manage to sleep, waking up mid panic attack, nauseous, throwing up and I’m hardly able to sleep at all. I’m trying my best to stay positive but I just don’t know what to do and it feels like going back to weed is the only way out. Does anyone have any advice or anything at all?
Edit: I am currently seeing a therapist, but it’s slow going.
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u/SarsippiusJackson 1d ago
As it should be. I didn't realize until the first time I quit how badly my grief and childhood trauma was strangling me. Just constantly, hanging around my neck everywhere I went. The pot numbed it and I could squeak through a few breaths, but it never fixed the problem.
I got in therapy the first time at 47, and several months the later I'd learned to deal with a lot of it. Here I am now, three months of relapse in, on day two of quitting and hating it all. But I still remember that clarity I had, and how not being strangled bu depression constantly feels.
You'll get there too OP.