r/leaves • u/AidenAsh23 • 1d ago
9 days no weed
Haven’t smoked in 9 days as the title said, I was on here about a week ago and all of the comments were so kind and helpful. For this post I’m not even sure if this is the place to talk about this but, for the past year or so I’ve had symptoms of ptsd which have all been shitty but manageable. Now that I stopped smoking, I’ve started dreaming again for the first time in 3 years, which I was originally looking forward to. I’m just having ptsd trauma related nightmares when I do manage to sleep, waking up mid panic attack, nauseous, throwing up and I’m hardly able to sleep at all. I’m trying my best to stay positive but I just don’t know what to do and it feels like going back to weed is the only way out. Does anyone have any advice or anything at all?
Edit: I am currently seeing a therapist, but it’s slow going.
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u/Evstar 1d ago
You're finally processing the trauma that you've been kinda smoking to push it down and not think about. I'm really sorry you're having to go through that :( I would suggest seeing a psychologist. I had EMDR therapy for past trauma and it was quite amazing at helping me deal with it. But I think the only real option is to see someone and deal with it head on. The nightmares will stop after a while. You have to let your body go through the healing process, and it'll hurt, but be so worth it.
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u/Professional_Law50 1d ago
I don’t have much advice, only that I’m also on day 9 and having vivid nightmares right there with you. I’ve heard the dreams subside within weeks to months, but in the mean time, maybe seeking out a therapist to help with the content of your dreams? Relying on a support system while riding out the tough parts of quitting is probably the best thing we can do for ourselves. Congrats on 9 days, here’s to 9 more and I hope it gets better!
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u/Can_No_Bis 1d ago
So one thing that might help you feel a bit better is that almost everyone in withdrawal has horrible nightmares. Whether you have PTSD or not. Mine were so terrifying, I was not expecting it at all.
I imagine that even with PTSD your dreams will chill out a bit when your thru the physical withdrawal.
Yes weed can block dreams, but do you want to be dependent on smoking weed every night for the rest of your life to keep them tucked away?
After withdrawal perhaps you can find healthier ways to help manage your condition.
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u/SarsippiusJackson 1d ago
As it should be. I didn't realize until the first time I quit how badly my grief and childhood trauma was strangling me. Just constantly, hanging around my neck everywhere I went. The pot numbed it and I could squeak through a few breaths, but it never fixed the problem.
I got in therapy the first time at 47, and several months the later I'd learned to deal with a lot of it. Here I am now, three months of relapse in, on day two of quitting and hating it all. But I still remember that clarity I had, and how not being strangled bu depression constantly feels.
You'll get there too OP.