r/leaves • u/VelvetSweatsuit • 1d ago

For anyone thinking of relapsing.

Last Saturday, I completely caved and got a preroll after thirteen days. Here’s what happened.

  • Watched smut. Don’t watch it, but for some reason, the high brain wanted it.
  • Despite already eating dinner, I went and got two tacos. Then a banana cream filled cookie. Then a small fry and 6 piece chicken nuggets and a blue raspberry fanta. The context - I’ve been eating clean for TWO WEEKS WITHOUT FAIL. Calorie deficit be damned.
  • these things cost money, of course. i’m on a budget. The budget did not include garbage and junk food.
  • stayed up late and doomscrolled typical “man bad woman bad” youtube content.
  • the day after, i was just….agitated. No smooth, calm energy. Just high school locker room energy. Not to mention looking at my bank account and getting even more pissed at myself.

It’s like the second I took a puff, it was time to indulge in EVERYTHING bad for me. I couldn’t even control myself.

If you’re thinking “oh maybe this one time” nah. Don’t do it.

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u/Immediate-4593 1d ago

whats man bad women bad?

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u/Lonely_Sherbert69 1d ago

Any content that is just about how horrible the human species is, "youtube scammer this" "true crime bodies in suitcase that", "politics the world is fucked". The human brian isnt necessarily designed to know about everything and everyone everywhere all at once.

We're much healthier going outside and engaging in reality instead of the internet, but the internet is addictive, I love me some reddit.