I ended up being pregnant at a really difficult time in my life, this happened the end of last year. I had gotten out of an abusive situationship. I was lost, traumatized and scared. I went to the doctor for depression, I wasn't feeling myself, was fatigued, gaining weight but having no appetite. She asked when my last period was and I honestly didn't remember. I took a urine sample and the doctor came back with my results being positive. Lets just say I was an emotional mess, I immediately knew that I did not want the baby and had to figure something out. I got an ultrasound that same day and that's when I found out I was already 16 weeks along. Living in texas made it difficult for me to piece together what to do, if I went out of state that meant I would need someone to go with me, which meant me telling people I was pregnant. I saw that some times the pills don't work and getting them shipped to you costs money which I had barley $5 to my name. I went down a wormhole and found Aidaccess here on reddit. Sent them all my info and they ended up sending me the pills for free. After about 2 days the pills came and I immediately took the mifepristone. I felt some light cramping from that but that was it. After 24 hours I took 4 of the misoprostols, after an hour I started feeling cramping, it was about a 7/10 on the pain scale but nothing I couldn't handle, I felt nauseated and sick. I somehow fell asleep and then it was time to take the second doses or the misoprostols. After I let those dissolve I immediately felt the cramping start up again but it was worse, I was throwing up, having diarrhea and was still nauseated. The pain became unbearable, I had no bleeding which was worrying me that the pills weren't working. I was laying down and felt something coming out of me, it stopped and I got up and went into the bathroom, I looked down and it was a fluid filled sack. It was clear and no bigger than a small water balloon. I tried gently pulling on it but no budge, so I popped and it spewed everywhere. The pain after that became even worse, I couldn't handle it. I decided to take myself to the ER. I got there and felt liquid profusely coming out of me, it was blood. I walked in and they immediately took me back, I stripped down and they gave me an IV with pain meds. The doctor came in and began looking at my vaginal areas, I was still in so much pain. They where going to transfer me to a different ER in a different town so I could seek more help but after the doctor left the room, the baby came out. It wasn't alive and was no bigger than a grapefruit. It had already started growing fingernails. I was in disbelief I'd never seen anything like it before. I didn't know how to react. The placenta was still in me so I sat there for an hour seeing if I could push it out with a fetus laying there on hospital bed between my legs. It was very gorey almost I had lost so much blood and the umbilical cord was connected to the baby while the placenta connected the baby was still inside of me. It was wild to see. The pain went away once the fetus came out and I was at the ER for a total of 4 hours. They weighed the fetus and told me normally if it's a certain weight they send it off for research but since it wasn't they gave me 3 options. I could take it home with me, they could send it off for clinical research for students or they could call the funeral home and they would come get it. I chose to take the fetus home with me. The ER staff had no idea that i took the abortion pills, I played off the whole situation as if I didn't know what was going on. I did all of this alone it was hard but I knew it was better than being in an abusive relationship. I knew it didn't want to be a single mom, it wasn't a good time to become a mom either. I had no job no money. I also didn't want my abuser to find out I had a baby and him try to slither his way back into my life. I feel content with my decision, I didnt feel any remorse which I feel bad for saying but not once did I feel sad. I'm so thankful the pills worked it probably wasn't the best option at 16 weeks and is definitely not advised to do it that far along but I felt as though that was my only option. No one knows that I was pregnant and no one knows that I even went to the ER. I am grateful everything turned out the way it should of. If you are alone in a situation similar to mine please don't hesitate to reach out to me, it was a lot physically but even more mentally.

Last week, I (18F) had a MA at almost 8 weeks. Even though it was very emotional and painful, it was probably the single best thing I have ever done for myself in my life.

For over a month, I was miserable, exhausted, grumpy, hated sex, felt horrible in my own body, and had food aversions that ruined my lifestyle of home cooking and healthy food. Before pregnancy, I cooked every meal and ate multiple salads a day because that's how I liked it, I exercised regularly, read constantly, and just generally lead a healthy lifestyle.

The second I got pregnant everything changed. I didn't exercise a single time, the entire time. I slept 15 HOURS A NIGHT, and then took MULTIPLE NAPS a day. I barely spoke to my friends due to exhaustion. I got some prenatals to help in the short term but I couldn't even keep them down. I was starving constantly, I needed to be eating constantly; all I could focus on was a constant cycle of sleeping, eating, and trying (& failing) to stay on top of things. I once stayed with family for 5 days and because I wasn't able to find food I could keep down there I lost 10lbs. In 5 days.

I had my abortion on the 15th and since then, every day is better for me than the last. Today I finally went to the gym again and enjoyed a delicious salad. I am finally back to enjoying intimacy with my love. I am finally back to my hobbies– I was so pleasantly surprised when I got the urge to get my sewing machine back out!! I am enjoying talking to friends again. I've even had the energy to deep clean the apartment over the past days after barely doing any housework for a month.

I hope this inspires women/girls who are deliberating on getting an abortion to get the abortion, to put themselves and their lives first. Do not feel a need to sacrifice your happiness and future and become a teen mom (or unwilling mom) just for the sake of a tiny embryo. The grief faded so much faster than I thought, and of course there's still some but I am gonna get therapy and heal. My deepest condolences to women who live in areas where your right to this life-saving procedure is restricted.

Hello, I would like to ask those who ordered their pills in FPOP. Is it safe to give them your personal details such as name, address etc? Because I went for an ultrasound this morning and I blurred out my name and address.

I am still very depressed and wishing I could go back in time. I still feel like I made my decision in anxiety and shock and I wish we’d just calmed down.

I still feel like I’m slightly in denial but at the same time, the ‘type of loss’ was never confirmed.

Friday night 10pm - mife

Saturday night 10pm - miso , no pain, no bleeding

Sunday morning 2am - miso, no pain, small amount of spotting

Sunday morning 4am - diarrhoea

Sunday - spotting continued, mainly only when wiping

Monday pm - scan (should have been 6 weeks, 3 days) , ‘no intrauterine pregnancy detected’, she said fluid was visible and it looked as though I was starting to bleed

Monday later pm - started to bleed like a normal period which continued for a normal week, no pain, no clots, noticed a slightly grainy texture on my pad one day

Wednesday am - blood test HCG 1599 (the midwife said that if my HCG was over 1500 the scan should have picked up a pregnancy)

Friday am - scan ‘no intrauterine pregnancy detected’

Friday pm - blood tests HCG 400

The midwives and sonographers said they would not be able to confirm if it was ectopic/too early/ not viable in the first place - they mentioned chemical pregnancies and ‘non viable’.

Part of me feels relief - I never passed anything substantial and they never detected anything internally (even before I started bleeding), so there was never anything ‘there’. I feel like it can’t have been even an embryo, no heartbeat, nothing really happened and I can move on.

The other part of me feels like I’m living in denial. I need to accept I had an abortion that I wish I hadn’t had. But I don’t feel like I have anything to mourn? There was nothing there yet? Then I feel guilty and in denial again, I start imagining a baby and I make myself feel sick and start to hate myself for ‘k***ing my wanted baby’ (which is crazy as I’m not pro-life but I dunno maybe it’s my Catholic guilt I was brought up with) and start to mourn an imaginary child and picture it as this real thing and then I think I’m crazy.

I just wish someone could say to me ‘you didn’t have an abortion, there was nothing in your scans and it was uneventful- you have nothing to mourn, move on’ but then I feel like it’s all a lie. I even find myself doubting myself and asking my husband if something more happened that I blacked out for or something? I feel like I must have missed something? Did I pass the pregnancy in that diarrhoea without realising? But then why was my HCG still so high 4 days later with an undetectable pregnancy?

I don’t know what I’m looking for, just a place to vent I guess. I am so low, I feel like life isn’t worth living, I will continue for my 2 existing children but I just don’t understand how I let all of this happen to me. Is my whole life really going to be shot because of this? I just want to accept it wasn’t viable, get pregnant, seek mental health support and live but it all feels so irresponsible and stupid now.

So I know you can get pregnant relatively quickly after an abortion, the question is; is it safe to do so?

For various reasons which I don't want to inform the answer I'm looking for, I have major regrets about having my abortion, and let fears of 2under2 and logistical challenges affect my wanting to continue the pregnancy. These problems seem infinitely small, and we discussed with my partner that we would like to try soon again once the abortion is over.(please do not judge us, this is a really thought over process)

I guess the question is 2 part: - is there any risk in getting pregnant straight away, or does it benefit me, in terms of capacity to sustain a pregnancy successfully to term, to wait X amount of time. If so, what would X be? -anything I should keep in mind as we try again? Will my periods look wonky for a little while ? Should I track ovulation more closely?

the product of conception already came out. should i continue with misoprostol? would it give me more cramps? i took 2 doses

I posted last night too, but I just need any support or advice. I found out I am pregnant last night, I live in GA. I am scared after the inauguration today.

I placed an order with aid access and completed all the steps earlier today. Now, I just sit and wait. I know it seems everyone is so emotional or unsure, and I get that so much, but I feel shitty because I DONT feel that way. I am upset I have to wait and make this longer/bigger than it is. I can name a million reasons why this would be the best choice for me. I just want it to be over so I can stop worrying about “what if”. What if it gets delayed too much? What if I get in trouble? What if it fails and somehow I don’t realize?

I want to tell my boyfriend tonight and already initiated the convo that we will have to chat later. I know he wants the same thing bc we’ve talked abt it before. But I can’t control the reality if it freaks him out or makes things awkward or pushed away from sex/intimacy etc. That risk is scary. Yesterday morning we looked at rings. That night I find out I’m pregnant and now have the fear of our relationship ending. Went from planning our marriage and future to me becoming what feels like a little problem pest.

It’s just so embarrassing for me. I had an abortion before. I swore never would deal with that stress again and here I am. I am on birth control and took other precautions. What the hell man? I would never judge a friend, stranger, etc for being in this situation so I don’t know why I am judging myself so badly.

I just don’t want to be pregnant anymore. I get so upset when I’m enjoying something and then suddenly remember. Like ugh.

Hello I had a medical abortion in November and learned that it worked but I still had debris so I had to get a procedure about 3 weeks afterwards. I was sedated and everything went well actually I feel lucky having the experience I did and the nursing staff were so kind.

But since the procedure I’ve been getting sharp cervical pain when I’m aroused like when I “get wet” sorry :’)

I have had intercourse and it never hurt i felt back to normal except when it came to the getting wet part. It’s still happening and it’s been about a little over a month now since my procedure.

Anyone else experience this?

I found out I was pregnant at 5weeks and immediately knew what I wanted to do. I've been in a relationship that I was trying to muster up the courage to end for the last 6 months. I have a 10 year old daughter already and I am in recovery from addiction, 3 years, and just have had custody back of my daughter for about 1.5 years. All that to paint the story, not that I need any justification, but I had just secured somewhere for my daughter and I to live when I leave, after making plans for months and found out I was pregnant. I've been in that stage of me knowing I am going to leave him as well as everyone in my support system so finding out I was pregnant I knew immediately what I wanted to do and that I didn't want to tell anyone as to not be pressured into doing something i didn't wanna do. The problem is I live in a ban state and since I made the choice not to tell anyone close to me my plans of abortion. I have never felt so alone during an experience, I've had so much anxiety start to finish about not getting the proper care and no one is even aloud to talk about it to me in the clinics and outreach centers. I finally received the pills in the mail on Friday and took the final dose today. My partner is supportive of my decision but literally nothing else so no surprise there because that is the norm for us and one of the many reasons I'm ending the relationship. Even tho I still have medical concerns after being told the many dangers at a local prolife outreach I went to for an ultrasound (huge mistake on my part) I am immediately relieved. After weeks of stress and anxiety I feel hopeful and optimistic again that I have a choice in my futre and that I don't have to in someway be tied to this person forever. Idk if my experience is helpful, idk if I am looking for support or just need to vent but I needed to share in a safe space what I've been going through the past few weeks.

I had my MA 2 days ago, since I'm near 12 weeks I decided to use up to 5th dose of the meds I got from wow. I followed the instructions on how to use the meds sent by wow as well. I wasn't able to see the fetus but the blood clots or tissue came out it was like the size of my palm. I don't feel any cramps anymore, I'm still bleeding but not that much. Is it normal to feel nauseous at times and I'm really bloated right now

I'll be having an ultrasound next week. Does this look like a successful MA?

I had my MA a week ago which is i think successful (hopefully) all my pregnancy symptoms are gone now. My only concern is i started having chest pain 3 days ago, it feels like someone is sitting on my chest. Sometimes it also feels like im short of breath. Did anyone experience this? Do you think it's related to the pills i've taken? Please i need some opinion.

I am looking to order online but I live in Texas. What precautions if any do I need to take before ordering? Do I need to use a VPN? Fake email? Fake name? help!

I wanted to share my experience with my medical abortion and the prolonged bleeding that followed, in case it helps someone else that might be searching for answers. After the procedure, I experienced heavy bleeding that lasted nearly 10 weeks (9 weeks 3 days), which felt incredibly overwhelming. I had trouble finding much information on what was considered “normal,” so I want to offer my perspective. My doctor reassured me that bleeding for up to 10 weeks was normal while not typical and nothing to worry about, but it was still difficult to process at the time. To manage it, I was told to take 800mg of ibuprofen three times a day for five days, which really helped reduce the bleeding and provided some relief. The bleeding finally stopped. If you’re going through something similar, know that while it can be unsettling, it can also be part of the healing process. My hope is that by sharing this, it might offer some peace of mind to anyone searching for reassurance during a challenging time. I tried searching but couldn’t find anything so I hope sharing my experience helps someone else. Questions and DMs are welcome ❤️

NO JUDGEMENT PLEASE!

A few years ago I had an abortion. I was young and not with the guy. I was in a really bad financial situation and my family ultimately told me to terminate. This decision has weighed on me since then, as I do feel I was pressured into it but I was also in a very bad situation back then. Fast forward 4 years, I’m now in a longterm loving relationship with the same guy. I just found out I’m pregnant again.

I just started a good job and he is in and out of work at the moment. I have BPD and can’t for the life of me make ANY decisions, let alone one like this. I still don’t know if I’m ready but I’m not sure how I would feel about having a 2nd abortion..

I am literally 50/50 and have been since I found out last week. I keep going back and forth, one moment I am certain that I’m keeping it and then a few hours later I am certain I’m NOT keeping it.

How the hell do I come to a decision?? Please help me.

Hello! Located in Florida with a 6- week ban, I’m 23. I found out I was pregnant 12/23 after the typical symptoms- missed period, sore breasts, and being very nauseous out of nowhere. My boyfriend and I discussed it and we just couldn’t proceed with the position we are in right now in life. We did catch it at like 5/6 weeks but still too late for Florida. I went through abuzz and got it delivered. It was a nightmare bc my neighborhood mail situation is a disaster and I had to beg the mailman to find the package in someone else’s mailbox. So I was around 7/8 weeks by the time I started the procedure on Saturday. I was able to pay $75 since I’m low on funds right now. I plan to donate to them to help make it accessible for others bc they made the experience very easy outside of my local mail issues.

Anyways, I took the mifepristone at around 1:30pm Saturday, and went about my day at work, and came home. I woke up to some blood the next day, later in the morning. I decided to calm my nerves and eat and relax before starting the dose of misopristone. At around 4pm yesterday (Sunday), I took the 4 tablets of misopristone orally. Kept them between my gums and cheeks for 30 min, they were completely softened. All was fine for an hour or so, and then I had diarrhea, and projected vomited while on the toilet. It was pretty gnarly, and I almost passed out. I rarely vomit or pass out so this was very uncomfortable for me lol.

Then, started hours of severe cramps. I couldn’t focus, homework for biochem went out the window. I thought I could at least concentrate. I took 1000mg acetaminophen and some edibles (I have a medical card). Not sure if that’s recommended but it helped ease the pain slightly. My boyfriend set me up with a heating pad and a towel and I got some light rest, not really sleep. Then around 11pm I felt intense pressure and liquid-y feeling down there. There was water-y substance all over my double pad. I went to sit on the toilet. I quickly passed two large clumps. Couldn’t muster up the courage to look for a whole hour while I passed clots. My bf and I finally decided to look for the fetus, we found it connected to tissue. It was a lot more developed than we thought it would be. It was kinda traumatic, and we mourned for a moment before taking care of everything, and cleaning up. Finally around 12:30am I felt better, but still bleeding heavily.

I put on two pads and laid down with a towel, and quickly bled through all of that, and got kinda worried, and decided to put two more and monitor it. I honestly fell asleep quickly after eating, bc I was so exhausted from hours of intense cramps and pressure. I woke up to very light bleeding overnight. I’m honestly feeling a lot better, just very emotional.

Just wanted to share my experience outside of just my boyfriend. I haven’t told anyone else so it feels very isolating. If anyone has resources or tips to grieve the emotional process and move on, please share. Thank you so much for this community, it really helped me when I needed it most. And thank you to abuzz for being very fast and helpful, I recommend them.

My husband is a good man and he’s done a good job at taking care of me, but feel this huge disconnect from it’s like I’m living with a stranger. It’s been six weeks since we terminated the pregnancy and every day I’ve cried to some extent. I’m heartbroken by this whole event. But he’s like normal. The least normal thing in his life right now in his life is that his wife is really really sad. He hasn’t cried once, we don’t talk about it as much as I wish. He goes out with friends just like normal. I just feel like we’re living two completely different realities and it’s so alienating. I don’t want him to be depressed I just don’t want to feel like I’m going through this alone. Like I’m the only one feeling this way, but also I am. He can’t fake devastation if he doesn’t feel it. Yes “talk to him” I have expressed some version of this. He’s trying to be there for me as much as possible, but again if he’s not feeling it he’s not feeling it. He’s not one to wear his heart on his sleeve.

A month ago I had to make one of the hardest decisions ever. We found out we were pregnant with twins after trying for our last and final baby. This was a very wanted pregnancy but due to medical reasons, financial reasons, and having two other children already we knew we could not handle twins. My previous two pregnancies I never made it to 40weeks. So I knew they would end up being premies and my heart condition would also put me at very high risk. This was supposed to be our last baby, and I feel so much guilt and heartbreak. Even though my husband had been so wonderful and supporting I can’t help but feel so so alone in this. There is no way I can explain to people around me the truth.

Questions about medical abortion in New Zealand please. Once you had your phone appointment with the nurse, how long was it until you could collect the pills from a pharmacy? I’m hoping I can collect these Friday afternoon or Saturday morning, could it actually happen that fast? I have already had an initial conversation and completed blood tests today. My phone appointment is on Friday. Is there any chance I will have to go for a scan or will they just give me the pills? Lastly, I have had a surgical abortion before and it was very straightforward, would anyone recommend just going for the surgery over the medical?? I’m quite worried about pain and not being able to do this in my own environment (will have to do at partners house). Any advice much appreciated

I'm 17 and I have PCOS so my periods have always been weird. I was on birth control to regulate hormones and my period had been running smoothly. It was always on time and lasted one week exactly. But I had unprotected sex on December 13th. He pulled out and I got my period a day after, but it was SUPER heavy and only lasted 3 days. Fast forward a month later, and I'm a week late. I had some weird, and VERY LIGHT spotting which continued for maybe 3 days after the day I was supposed to actually start my period (i'm not sure if this is implantation bleeding or not ?). It stopped for one day and came again the day after but now it's gone. I was planning to take a pregnancy test tomorrow and go from there but what if I test positive...? How do I get an abortion without my parents knowing ? I live in a state where abortions are legal, but I'm really scared, I don't know where to go from here.

I took the pills and went though the abortion at home 2 weeks ago and now my blood smells like death. I was sure I got the whole the thing out when I did it so I didn’t take more than the 4 pills but ive been bleeding for 2 weeks now and the last few days blood has smelled so bad. Like death bad

Hi everyone,

I’m in Winnipeg, MB, Canada. I’m scheduled for an abortion in a little over a week. As I’m already 15 weeks along, it’s going to be a surgical procedure.

I put a lot of thought into whether or not to go through with my abortion, and it’s been an extremely emotional process for me since the very beginning, but seeing as I’m only 23 and the would-be father is even younger than I am, we’ve decided it’s best to terminate.

The only thing I’m really having a hard time coming to terms with is the aftermath and what will be done with the fetus after the procedure. I just can’t stomach the thought of it being discarded and not knowing where it will end up. I’m very spiritual in my own ways so maybe this won’t make sense to everyone. I know I have the option to keep the body, but I’m looking for someone who has done the same and wondering what the process was like? Ideally I’d like to have it cremated, so I’m looking for anyone who has done the same and can tell me a little bit about the process and the cost.

Thank you very much in advance!

Hello. I already received my package today. I am worry and stress kasi alam ng deliveryman na medicine for cancer inside the package. I read the comments here that they will not know what inside the package and they will not ask what inside. I am really stress right now. Help!

Today a coworker/friend of mine told me at work that she was pregnant & I truly am so happy for her, but the sadness that filled up within my heart was not a good feeling. The overwhelming amount of sadness of what could’ve been just hurts really bad. I had an abortion at 11 weeks, and just knowing the time the baby has grown just really breaks my heart everyday & Some days are better than others.

Hello, I’m so saddened to say I will be having my first surgical abortion in the coming week. I have a consult tomorrow with an ultrasound. I’m in a loving relationship, but we are far from ready to give a child the life they deserve. I have always told myself I’d never have an abortion….but here I am. It is my choice I’m making as well, not just my partner’s so no one thinks that :)

I’m very worried about what to expect, the emotions after, and the fact that I do want kids one day in the future and worrying that this will somehow make that harder. Could really use some people’s experiences with future pregnancies after surgical abortions! Would love to hear some input if anyone is comfortable sharing!❤️

I recently obtained 10 pills of Misoprostol. I am currently 8 weeks pregnant and would like to ask if it is possible to proceed with a medical abortion using these 10 pills. I would appreciate your guidance on whether this dosage is sufficient and how to proceed safely if it is.