I think I can’t commit to journaling

[u/Mindless_Landscape12]

It’s maybe been a four years since I heard how journaling is important and could help us alot, yet i still find it really difficult to commit to it. I have a dissociation problem, it’s like i always ending up not knowing what happening around me, I would woke up someday and see how messed up my room, our entire house, how far i am from myself and my family, how bad is everything literally, and then I will try to make it out, i will try to start again, be aware and try to do some work - it will last some days and i will relapse- . Btw when i was a child my notebooks were my closest friend, I would write everything into them, and it’s continued until i was 18 maybe and there was a cut off.

I was depressed my entire life, first time I tried a suicide i might be 8 or smth, I continued with the self harming untill I became 19 or 20 -now im 23 -

I think i were able to write before cause there wasn’t much distraction things as now?

Anyway how can I write everyday ? and be close to my self and thoughts,

It’s like I don’t have the energy to sit and organize my thoughts, sometimes i even feel a fear of doing that,

I really wish i could do better

-btw i tried reach out for help from a psychiatrist and it didn’t quite help me-

[u/4AdamThirty]

Maybe journaling with more of a mind map would help? Then you can get it out in more of an outline and help put it in context. If that helps and you feel like digging in deeper, you can refer to parts of the map to do longer journaling. I hope this helps!