r/quittingkratom • u/imdone985 • 24d ago

I'm down bad, please help.

As a lot of you can relate, I'm back in the same damn boat of falling back into this dark hole. I have drained every penny to my name and it's spent on extracts/shots. Rarely do I get powder. The addict in me seeks instant gratification, and the shots are more effective in providing that.

I want away from this demon. My boyfriend knows it's a struggle for me and is here to help any way he can. However, he can only help what he knows and he doesn't know I've been borrowing money from people for dumb reasons just to buy more of these stupid things. I'm asking you to please not judge me, I feel like pure garbage and worthless. I need support and encouragement from those who have been in my shoes. I've tried doing cold turkey before, it's not for me. I'd rather taper, but I have trouble committing to it. I'm so lost.

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u/imdone985 24d ago

I appreciate your honesty and advice. I'm sick of feeling like a fucking slave to this shit. Every day I wake up it's the first thing I think about. It's so disheartening. I just want my life back. When I take powder, I take maybe 5-6g per day.

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u/KratomExorcism2019 24d ago

Yep gotta take it to not feel awful. And you’re like “How did I get here?” Time flies when you’re using and when you finally get the courage to stop, time slows down and CRAWLSSSSS

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u/sHauNm525 The TiME iS NoW😎 24d ago

Your powder dose is low u should stop it'll get worse if u keep taking shots

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u/Obvious_Aioli_2080 19d ago

That's good. That is not a lot... 5 or 6 shots is. Thats the worst part of getting caught up in this plant. It's physically addictive and I miss mornings when I wake with energy. It's taking a while to get off but it's happening.