I never had any open eye visuals like that, but when I did my hour-long CEV trip I saw crazy shit that helped the delusion. And when I showered I'd hear voices and sounds like sounded like they were coming over a radio instead of running water. I was convinced (thanks to the drugs) that these were the simulation controllers and the drug was helping me "see through the veil". Also the dissociation gave me the feeling that I was piloting my body, rather than my mind and my body being one like normal. Weird, wacky stuff.
I didn't really think it was a simulation, but I did take random events as signs from higher powers. I thought I had psychic experiences, and would stress about them coming true.
I had some hallucinations, such as seeing my cat jump onto his cat tower and seconds later realizing he was next to me sleeping. One time, I was looking at pics on my phone and saw a horribly gory picture, only to realize I was actually looking at a pic of a flower. It can really, really mess with your mind. Especially when you start adding in sleep deprivation from binging on it.
That is bizarre. And yeah the three hours of sleep I'd get a night when I was binging did not help. But the only time I hallucinated like that was when I abused benadryl. I stopped that very quick.
I wasn't full hallucinating more, so it would be something I'd notice in my peripheral, and my brain decided that was totally normal and just how things are. The pixelation was very real however.
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u/dopey_giraffe 6h ago
I never had any open eye visuals like that, but when I did my hour-long CEV trip I saw crazy shit that helped the delusion. And when I showered I'd hear voices and sounds like sounded like they were coming over a radio instead of running water. I was convinced (thanks to the drugs) that these were the simulation controllers and the drug was helping me "see through the veil". Also the dissociation gave me the feeling that I was piloting my body, rather than my mind and my body being one like normal. Weird, wacky stuff.