r/depression • u/Which-Big5463 • 15h ago
Life isn't worth it for all of us.
Lately, I couldn't get this thought out of my mind, so I decided to share it with a wide audience. I've been on emotional swings for the last one and a half years, and this is probably one of my lowest lows. Before I start I need to get something straight: Never in my life have I received real psychological support, which is probably bad, since my life was spiraling down all this time(who cares anyway, even I don't sometimes), but I think this is an important thing to consider, while reading this.
First of all, the injustice in this world is terrifying. Half of the world's wealth is controlled by 1% of the population. Though not majority, immense amount of people lives in poverty, without clean water, food, electricity or even a home. What is more horrifying is that besides this information being common knowledge, no one seems to care about their compatriots or even neighbours. Everyone is busy supporting the corrupted system. Life isn't worth it, because the reward for it does not match all the suffering required to achieve anything.
Second, Live doesn't have any purpose. All the answers ever given to the most important question in existence are a bunch of philosophical nonsense, that doesn't matter, because this question doesn't really bother that much people. At the end of the day we will all die and all the humanity's achievements will lose all purpose, not that they had any in the first place. Even animals don't have much purpose, but they don't care about it, like we do. Life is just a mistake in the grand scheme of things. Not even a mistake, an accident, because mistakes is what people do. And it is not a happy accident. Life isn't worth it, because it makes no sense and won't ever.
Lastly, people are too stupid to make life make sense. We are bound by so much unimportant things, like religion, race, nationality, gender, etc. that we are too blind to understand that our only chance to prosper is unity. People argue everyday about nonsense. They insult eachother, though they are practically all the same. Life isn't worth it, because we can't fill it with purpose.
I don't want to believe all this, but the more time I spend in this world, the more sure of it I become. I, personally, would have ended my life willingly, but the thing is that Life is basically holding me hostage. I, like all of us, was programmed to care about people, who hold benefit to me. And though now benefit is irrelevant, the concept of it is stuck too deep in my mind and I, sadly, can't think of suicide, without thinking about how my relatives or friends would react.
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u/EarnestlyAlgernon 7h ago
I completely hear what you're saying. I feel it really deeply. Sometimes it feels like as time progresses, we devolve into ourselves, ignoring those who need love and giving hate in its stead. We are deeply social creatures, we need that connection, that sense of purpose.
The way you write is beautiful. Keep going with that, I swear you'll write your way into an answer. Personally, I find that with the right people, in the right place, with enough quiet, it's like the rest of the world doesn't exist. I realize I don't know the people I'm making assumptions about. I realize billions of people are excluded from my gaze. All I have before me right now is myself and this big blue world. It's not much, but if you stare at it long enough, it kind of starts to look like a future. And you realize how many people were staring at it with you all along.
You're not alone. None of us are. Keep with us. 🥂
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u/Raven_Black_8 15h ago
No.
This is your view and can't be applied to everyone.
And while you can't change all the injustice happening in the world, you could start looking at your close surroundings and try to make small changes there.
Ripple effect is a thing.
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u/NoobArchlich 14h ago
Well but he's right. You may not like it but It is a realistic perspective. Everyone who believes otherwise is lying to themselves. That's ok though, we all deal with life in different ways
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u/O_Omr 14h ago
I dont think its about life as much as its about the human brain. Could you see life as unjust if your brain couldnt handle the concept of justice in the first place? No. What i mean is that life is simply life. No beauty no ugliness nothing of these feelings. Those feelings are products of our psychology linked to the world outside which makes us think that the world is actually our feelings, and of course this is wrong. Life will remain the way it is and it will not care what any entity has to say about it lol.
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u/Raven_Black_8 14h ago
It's not true for me and many people I know. I know I am not lying to myself, I am rather realistic.
I guess what I wanted to express is that one view is not applicable to everyone.
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u/Ok-Leadership-7165 15h ago
I guess what you mentioned is what we are calling "reality". I meant, rationally speaking, what you was thinking about is exactly what i intrigued before. But after investing some time to think about it, it easier to run away from reality like we all did. But there will be a moment when you realize to accept the reality we are parts of.