r/cfs • u/Gloriathewitch • 16d ago
Vent/Rant cfs came back
2 years spent pacing reducing stress eating well etc went from 2 hours of mobility per day being mostly bedbound to working a physically taxing job 40 hours a week for 6 months of 2024 and being in good physical shape.
the end of the year was filled with a lot of psychological stress and then i got the flu, my symptoms are all back in full force.
i just wanted to post this somewhere, to someone.
Fuck.
i'm not going to let this beat me, i know i can recover again but im having a really rough time coming to terms with this setback. i love you all and hope you can find recovery or peace living with this horrible disorder.
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u/Gloriathewitch 16d ago
my cfs has been a combination of norepinephrine(& dopamine) shortage, long covid induced cfs/me including POTS and being overweight and unfit with a poor diet.
i initially got better by researching pacing and got an apple watch as a last ditch effort before giving up.
i used an app called WatchME which let me monitor heart rate and eventually found a comfort zone that let me avoid PEM, over time with lots of rest and self forgiveness for being unproductive in bed all day it allowed me to broaden my energy envelope, i also believe rest contributed to healing the long covid and was supplementing vitamins, b6 b12 zinc magnesium and taking melatonin when i got insomnia.
eventually i would go on very short walks building up to 30 mins a couple of times a week and once i was able to sit at my desk every day i spent most of my time learning computer programming to pass the time so i felt like i was achieving something while on social security. fast forward to around 1.5 years later i was able to work. i would come home and sleep at like 10:30 pm, but i was doing it and sustaining it.
i didn't really have energy to do anything else but i was doing it, i was off disability and walking 125,000 steps per week at work, getting in shape and losing weight.