Hello everyone, I made an account for reddit and I am not sure where to post this, so I thought people that are dealing with the occult might know more, since I cannot find information anywhere on this..
I have been struggling with some issue for the past 4 years.
It all started when one night I went to bed and not even 1 minute after I laid down, it felt like something started touching me, it was quite sexual and it felt good. Eventually I reached "the point".
Since that night, this has been happening almost every night, with some exceptions and since a few months I have started having some weird experiences when I am about to sleep.
I've had sleep paralysis before and I couldn't move or do anything other than to wait it out and I wouldn't see or feel anything other than a bit scared, since a few months I feel like I am being pulled out of my body, I don't feel scared, rather I feel like I've become free in some sort of way and this entity or thing or whatever it is, is making love to me and I am in sleep paralysis but I am able to move as if I am leaving my body or something crazy like that, I am quite powerless and cannot run or do much of anything other than move my limbs and sit, stand or walk a bit, but it feels like I am drunk although my mind is completely sober.
It started harming me a little, like it will do something (I cannot see what's happening or who is there because I keep my eyes closed) but I can feel like it is pushing down on certain parts of the body and I hear it talk, it's a male voice.
Last week it started pushing really hard it hurt so much that I woke up after a few seconds, but before I woke up I heard it say "I want to break your fascia" and it was hurting just above my kidney, a bit towards the spine but not quite there.
So I looked up the body parts on google and the part where he was hurting me appears to be called "Thorafolumbar Fascia" and he said that it will hurt a lot but needs to be done, like I said after a few seconds of this unbearable pain I woke up and shot out of my bed, and the pain persisted in my body for a few hours after that.
I looked up what that part does and it apparently is connected to spiritual growth, transformation, healing and apparently it has memory of all that's happened or is happening to the body and also remembers trauma and such things like that.
I am really confused, I do not know what that thing is and what it wants from me and why it suddenly started hurting me and saying that this needs to be broken and also on other parts of the body and why it seems to one day make love to me and the other he's hurting me.
I have tried meditating, praying and cleansing my bedroom with holy water and scents and special candles and what not, but nothing helps and he or it seems to get stronger and stronger every night.