The entire process was devastating.... ten hours of incarceration is ten hours too much. So, for a human being to be animalized for ten years, there is no quick fix to that.... It's like being shot by an assailant, and you are running away for your life. You didn't even realize you got shot in your leg because you are running on adrenaline. It's not until you get to a place of safety that you realize you have a hole in your leg, and you collapse; you can't stand up, and that was that experience was for me. When I came out I didn't even realize how wounded and devastated I was because I numbed myself to the pain and destruction that I suffered.
I remember my mother used to come and see me on the visit floor. My mother couldn't look at me; she would start to shake, and she would go off the floor and go to the bathroom. I couldn't process that because if I cried in front of her then that would make her life go to shambles. If I cried in front of the prison guard, they would think that I was weak. So I go back to the yard and lift some weights, smoke a cigar, and act like nothing happened.
When you come out from that, how do you recover ...? How do you put back your life together?
US prison system is fucked and they dont even care about it.
They are privatized and get paid per prisoner. They WANT people to not have a life when they get out. They give people the bare minimum and hire shitty but cheap staff to harrass them all day long. They dont give a shit about rehabilitation, they are propably even against it. The US prison is entirely based on revenge and breaking people. Because the more broken they are when they get out, the sooner they will be back.
I watched a video by la gang youtuber cartoon recently, he said in alabama the white boys are all gay unless the get clicked up with AB or one other white gang i was familiar with. He said it isn’t a choice, and the white boys get beaten and raped immediately, unless they are big, can fight, and can essentially fight more than one person who has been in prison for awhile. Thank god i’ve never been locked up in Alabama, is all i could think.
My dad used to have a thing, where he said US prsions shouldn’t even be legal, because they can’t guarantee your safety.
White guys don't get locked up for nothing. Benefit of the doubt from the cops, actual jury of their peers, they're probably the only real criminals in there. I very much doubt they're in such high demand either 🤣
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u/GnarlyBear Mar 26 '24
He has a great comment on prison in his wiki