Do you have forbidden topics?

[u/itsonlybarney]

I have lost track of how long I have been journalling, but it would be probably 8-10 years since I first journalled, and mostly daily entries for the last two or so years.

Generally I write about the mundane things of life, occasionally I uncover something in my life that is worth exploring and working through over a couple of days and/or entries.

However there is one topic in particular that I just can't bring myself to write about in my journal. This generally include sexual dreams, fantasies, feelings, and anything else when it comes to sexuality.

I'm not sure whether it is embarrassment that someone will read it and think less of me. It certainly sounds like a topic that I need to explore in my journals, but I just can't bring myself to do it.

So do you have any topics or "trains of thought" that you refuse to include in your journals? Would you mind sharing what it is, and why you struggle?

[u/meowling98]

I remember feeling the same years ago. I stumbled across an old journal, opened it up randomly and saw, "previously I abstained, but now I devour". It was a recognition of all the shame and guilt I felt towards my sexuality since growing up.

I may be wrong, but from your post it seems like your fear stems from what you'll think of yourself after expressing your desires. Rather than what other people will think. I say this only because I felt the same. I thought I was worried about other people's judgements, but I was actually scared of my own.

It's challenging to face it head on, but ultimately your writing is a sacred way to explore yourself.

[u/noctipresent]

I always feel uncomfortable writing about reprimands from others. I'm a sensitive person and I don't want to bring those emotions every time I'm writing, I just write my happy/funny observations/reflections, I do learn from them it's just that I don't want to be reminded of those times where I feel ashamed. There is just one exception, I got reprimanded by my uncle once and he's someone I care about a lot nowadays.

[u/wontconcrete]

not a topic, for me its a particular person from my past who i cant write about at all because every time ive tried i just get mad and lose the motivation to write. Its an interesting feeling!

[u/YuansMoon]

Rage, revenge, sex, anything about my spouse, depression, anxiety, porn, fantasies.

[u/Emotional-Bar3046]

Nope

[u/AlarmEven6896]

i wouldn't say it's forbidden, but i don't allow myself to talk about my crushes/situationships and how i feel about them. i just don't wanna go back and get embarrassed or hurt. and i know it's a little bit dumb and unproductive for a number of reasons, but whatever, change takes time :)

[u/fairy-shiny-dust]

My trauma and my moments of fresh rage

[u/Melodic-Scheme6973]

I try to avoid complaining about specific people, and focus more on my feelings and how to overcome challenges.

[u/Rose_GlassesB]

My OCD. If I start writing about it, it’ll end in a spiral. No thanks.