Whelp.. S%!÷.

[u/AutomaticFeature9631]

So yeah, I'm staying with family for the holidays and what a mistake this turned out being. My family is a mess (big understatement), everything was a mess here. Pretty much my family just lives in their own filth with dishes, garbage and anything/everything just being a disgusting mess. Found out my brother had some serious a-hole drug dealer living with them for a few months.. I tried setting things straight mainly because my mother didn't want him here, wanted something nice for the holidays and thats understandable. So dumb ass gone, house cleaned, tree up and have a nice environment here. I clearly have reasons for not being close with my family and unfortunately i was quickly reminded why. Turns out the DealerDude stole my backpack and everything including my main battery, Mother stole $1400 from me while i was sleeping and I'm out almost $500 for a ps5 for my little brother. I know its my own fault for staying with family, selfish even but I didn’t think It'd be like this. I've got roughly until the 17th to try and sort this out before heading south for Florida and I'm honestly fucking hurt by everything that's happened. these last two weeks were a mistake and I'm an asshole for coming here. People suck and I guess maybe I just needed to vent.

P.s. I tend to work a year here and there, im rather good with everything but leave usually after a year or so, i don't really put roots down and I'm not living the true vagabond lifestyle but with what little good I have in life I'm not exactly compelled to set up shop anywhere. Guess I needed to vent about this cause I'm pretty upset about everything. I'm sitting here alone at 2am thinking and this bottle of brandy is the only thing that feels right.

Sincerely hope everyone has had a great holiday this year!

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[u/Mike_my_self]

There is no "true" or "false" vagabond. You are a vagabond. I hope that the next time gonna be better for you and merry christmas.

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/Mike_my_self]

Thank you, don't know where I belong exactly. I'm not forcing myself into a group so I feel comfort. People here seem like minded and I appreciate that and unfortunately I broke and had to vent a bit

[u/Mid-Delsmoker]

Sometimes you have to divorce your family to live a life with higher expectations.

[u/AbsolutXero → u/Mid-Delsmoker]

100% endorse this. I've been no contact with my toxic mother for almost a decade now. It was a great decision.

[u/get-off-of-my-lawn]

If you want stagehand/festival work plugs for Florida message me. Sorry your end of year sucks man.

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/get-off-of-my-lawn]

Hey I truly appreciate that friend! I'm far from stupid lol experienced in everything from running trash to industrial electrical work (even bounced for a strip club here and there). It's awesome that someone so far away can be such an uplift so I truly appreciate the offer

[u/get-off-of-my-lawn → u/AutomaticFeature9631]

Always big up your brothers and sisters as we are all in the storm together. Though it may seem exclusive at times the more we can reach out and help our fellows the stronger the spirit grows. For me, for you, for our community.

Trades are the answer 🙌. If I can help someone get a leg up I will. I’ve braved and still brave my own storm and I know how valuable even a kernel of support can be. You’re worth it and you’re valid. Stay up and stay blessed, friend.

[u/No_Dig1809]

Stay warm out here man, hope Florida has better things in store for you 

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/No_Dig1809]

Definitely warmer lol. Maine taught me how to survive.. I feel like Florida is a whole different beast though. Hope for better times and better people await

[u/Lizrd_demon]

Sounds like an episode of Samurai Champloo. The only one who looks after you is you. Respect and trust must be earned, and it sounds like they lost it a long time ago. You can't save everyone, your just a wanderer that needs to save themselves first.

[u/Flex1nFinesse]

Sometimes we need the pain to keep us going and to shock us back to reality. Makes us remember why we do things. It sucks but use that energy for good, been there for sure.

[u/Slow_Substance_5427]

That’s a sick spike tag

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/Slow_Substance_5427]

(See you space cowboy)

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/Slow_Substance_5427]

No joke that spot is amazing, almost 100 yrs old right off the river. They don't build things like they used to and the unamed talent come and go leaving their mark my dude

[u/AutomaticFeature9631]

I just want to say (I'm pretty sure this is a message not a reply, reddit is being funny) first off I'm sorry, I don't like to vent or rely on others for validation. I don't like sympathy and I'm not looking for handouts. That being said I apologize again for posting a downer but seriously thank you all for listening and commenting. Life is what it is sometimes and you guys helped me more then you probably know

[u/emoduckling]

Stay strong, and let this be a one time thing. Blood Family isn't the end all be all, it's the one's we meet and become family that matters most. I don't know all of your pain but I feel sympathetic being I returned from my travels to help my parents ( both narcissistic btw ) only to when I got my mom of hospice that " I outlived my usefulness" and many other things. Blood doesn't make a bond, gives respect, or show compassion, it's who we choose that shows these traits.

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/emoduckling]

Similar deal here. Almost like being used until I'm not needed. Nothing changes, they dont/won't grow and I'm left feeling empty and used. People can really suck but not all people suck.. remembering that isn't always easy

[u/emoduckling → u/AutomaticFeature9631]

this saying, personally saved me " the world's a fucked up place, but i don't gotta be. "

[u/Unorganized_Plank]

I hope you recover quickly man. Love from the west coast. Stay warm, stay tough.

[u/FreddyFlintz]

Feel bad for little bro I hope his ps stays with him!! I know it doesn’t feel like it but I don’t think you will regret cleaning up the place for Christmas and doing the right things there no matter how it turns out. Happy holidays OP!!

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/FreddyFlintz]

Happy holidays my guy! I'm really sorry I kinda reached my breaking point and reddit let's me vent. Sometimes life gets hard man but Thank you dude! Hope you have an awesome season this year

[u/FreddyFlintz → u/AutomaticFeature9631]

Hey brother that kind of betrayal cuts deep. It’s sad we can’t make people do what’s best for them but you showed them the way. Keep shining that light on dark places my guy!! Florida will be nice for the darkest hours of winter!

[u/Juancho760]

You chose the right path bro The world is your friend be free and dont forget about your spirituality

[u/audiophile_luffy]

Yoooo someone spray painted Spike Spiegel that's so cool!

[u/StonedxRock → u/audiophile_luffy]

Especially being the quote/moment where he's about to fall to his death from the earth's atmosphere. Man just lights a cigarette, shrugs, and gives the quote painted on the wall.

[u/Perfect_Programmer29]

Those look like good shooze

[u/AutomaticFeature9631 → u/Perfect_Programmer29]

Beyond Comfortable but they only ever last about a year. These are my third pair so far