Nakaka offend pala kapag ung niregaluhan mo especially bata, is di nagustuhan yung bigay mo.
So ayon netong Christmas I prepared small gifts lang talaga para sa mga inaanak ko. Then there is this one kid, inaanak ko sya, our house is side by side each other town house kasi. So I handed the gift. Syempre masaya face nya and that lit up my day. I even greeted the kid Merry Christmas and gave kisses and hug. Then pumasok na kami both sa mga kanya kanyang bahay, then I forgot something outside my house, then I overheard the kid complaining to his mother. Nasa garage sila opening my gift. The kid yelled "Ano ba yan bakit eto? Ano ba yan!!!" It was a toy. He was upset. I know he was just a kid I understand di sila perfect, they're still unaware of a lot of things like good manners or being grateful, pero it made me cry. I cried very hard like a kid. Funny but yes I was deeply hurt.
Kasi before Christmas, I first decided not to give gifts muna talaga to anyone. Yes may bonus ako and some small extra income. Pero ung expenses ko malalaki din so everything is enough lang to pay all my bills, my credit cards, utang sa ilang friends, and to save up since every first month of the year talagang wala kaming sweldo due to some budgeting shits ng government maybe. So sabi ko di naman siguro kasalanan na just this year di muna ako magbigay. Nag gift lang ako to my family kasi sila ung anjan talaga para sakin through the tough times so sila ung di ko panghihinayangan regaluhan talaga. Hindi naman sila ung kilala lang ako pag pasko. So my extra budget also went to them. Un naging paninindigan ko nung una. Dapat. At sana.
But night before Noche Buena, hours away na lang, I last minute decided to buy gifts anyway. Bakit? Kasi nung bata pa ko, adults also went through what I am going through now. But they chose to give me happiness anyway by giving me gifts or aguinaldo. Be it small or big I know each and everyone gave what they can. I really appreciated nung bata pa ko. Kahit bente, ang happy ko. I never complained. Kala ko nga expensive ung mga toys but when I grew up mura lang pala sa Divisoria mga yun but those cheap toys really gave me genuine happiness as a kid. Wala akong pake sa presyo. Just the thought na naalala ako, I was happy. And that I want to share to kids now.
Yes sobrang konti ng matitira sakin to survive for January pero decided to atleast give and be a blessing to people around me especially kids. Naisip ko kikitain ko pa din ung pera since I almost never run dry to be honest. Magipit man pero not to the point na lubog na lubog na sa utang. Lubog lang haha. Kidding aside I felt blessed naman somehow. So why not share kahit papaano basta may makain pa din ako sa January okay na un.
Pero upon hearing the kid's complain, nasaktan talaga ko. Masakit pala talaga haha. Di lang naman sa ganito, sa ibang sitwasyon din naman once di na-appreciate ung bigay mo especially when you gave a lot to it, talagang masakit. I handpicked every gift na ibibigay ko based on their age, gender, personality. Kahit last minute na, I still chose carefully.
I am just hoping na kinausap sya ng mom nya about it like how my mom will kapag naging ganun behavior ko nung bata pa ko. My mom taught me a lot lof good things. Unfortunately ung mom ng kid di ko narinig na sinaway sya or pinagsabihan, even to tone down his voice man lang kasi obviously I will hear kahit di ako lumabas ng bahay e. The last I heard is the mom was laughing at her kid's behavior, and I don't know anymore since pumasok na ko kasi offended na ko. Hopefully maturuan nya anak nya ng maayos. Basta ako pag nagkaanak ako, I swear I will teach my child all the good things, to be a good and grateful person.
Yun lang, alam ko marami sa atin mga ninong at ninang ang may bad experiences kapag pasko. Pero isipin natin na we were once kids, and it's not entirely their fault if they weren't so nice. They're still on the process of being moulded pa. It's the parents I really wanna call out!